It was when I sat there,

River-lake flooding past me,

Trees swooping down,

That I first felt it.

The dizziness of life,

Hitting upon me,

All swirled into calm,

And it spread

Wildly.

I thought I had seen it when gazing at

Stars,

Or your eyes,

The light that layers just underneath

And comfort at the root,

under everything.

My love affair with the universe started then,

And burned violent until I lay feverish,

A violet shrieking I grasped comfort

Among surroundings everywhere it had laid,

A flower,

A light,

never failed to glimmer each time I mouthed his name. 

I think about you, 
In the silence,
Between loud words,
In the gaps between pauses .
They shudder us a stir.

You are there, always
On the tinge of consciousness,
Your smile like marigolds and 
Lips, peaches. 

I think you are like a heaven
So intangible and sweet
Hard to grasp, 
But still there,
It has been always as such,
& Always will be.